Lesser restrictions

 2022

lesser restrictions

cov19 is still here but with lesser restrictions

as if wala na pero nandyan pa rin

just so I know

COVID

COVID --

pandemic stop
just so i'd know
2020

for some selfish

or unselsfish reasons

i am still here

I've been contemplating for a couple of years now 

and every time

i would be able

you knock

you have other concerns

and I'm still here

i wander

i float

i wonder at your wonders

how your message is brought

amidst noise and chatter

under the rain or sun's rays

(yet) i contemplate

(yet) i wonder

originally written on 2010 October 01
edited on 2020 May 1

SABI NG PUSO

Sabi ng puso ko, ok Lang
Sabi ng utak ko, ok lang
Bulong ng kaluluwa ko, may kulang
Ba't ganun?

Marami na akong ipinagpasa-diyos
Di lahat ng hiling ay ibibigay nya sa oras na sinabi ko
Darating at darating ito sa kanyang takdang oras o panahon
Sino ba ako para tanungin sya ng
Ba't ganun?

Nitong mga nakaraang araw
Mga nakakausap ko'y may kanya- kanyang problemang iniisip
Kung sabagay, lahat naman tayo'y may mga problema
Di normal ang taong walang problema
Kahit nga pusa namin may problema
Ang galing umakyat ng puno at manatili sa bubung ng kabilang bahay
Pero di naman makababa - maulanan man sya o maarawan, wala syang pakialam
Takot syang tumalon pababa. Takot din gumapang sa sangang kanyang inakyatan

Ganyan din tayo; nasa harap na natin ang solusyon pero di natin ginagawa
Dahil may takot...nakukulangan
Kapag isip lang ang pagaganahin, kulang
Kapag puso lang, mas may sakit
Kapag puso't isip naman, kulang pa rin
Dapat may lalim....may bulong ng damdamin

pwet

maghapong nakaupo
kailangang tumayo
kundi, masakit sa likod
masakit sa pwet
ano ba talaga ang tamang oras
o panahon lang na dapat nakaupo
para di gaanong sumakit ang likod
ang pwet...

Never Again...

Never again...
writing in my blog is seldom done. but writing in a journal or in a notebook takes me years even! i guess i can't find the time to write.....don't have the luxury to think what to write

so, don't think! just write! funny how this works. for me it does.
just scribble and well, ideas will come out of your brain
and more from your heart.

when your heart speaks, balancing what is right or just or what is morally right or morally uptight is harder than using the brain to do the feeling. you think?

so when we speak of love, is it the heart that's thinking or the brain that's feeling?
when heartache pushes its way in, do you feel it or do you think it; do you pull it out? do you even try pulling it out?
when this mess happens how and when will you start anew and mayhap forgive...forget?
how about trust issues? is it questioning another's motives or feelings or questioning yourself - trusting one's self is a bigger problem than  trusting someone else.

don't start with big steps; start with small steps
discovering love and living life once more is as to when you were a toddler touching surfaces - smooth, rough, tender, or hard. But unlike the toddler, you now discover, feel, and think on your own; and not dependent on what others say.

digs
11192010

in silence

i see your colors in silence
i see your life even in silence
you whisper so i alone may hear
(your sweet voice)
in silence we embrace
...one love

9.16.09
8:00am